Well, didn't throw-up the cake. But honestly, I just don't want to eat now. Even bland stuff makes my stomach roll. BAH. I'm so completely tired of sickness. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I was looking around the net last night, and came upon a photo gallery of pics from DCon that my friend Turo took. He made alot of the pieces of my costume. And he totally rocks. Anyway, as I was looking at them, I was amazed at how good I truely looked. In my eyes, I blended really well with the guys. I just don't see what the big fuss was about.
But let me tell you what it did do. It made me want to get back on the wagon. My body has never looked as good as it did then. And not only that, my confidence was at it's peak. I was holding myself with pride. I've noticed lately that I walk around with slumped shoulders and my head hanging down. I've started wearing baggy clothes again to hide my body. I'm mean here it is the first day of Spring, and I'm terrified of pulling out a pair of shorts. It's truely amazing how much can happen in a year. Last year I was buying new bikini's and this year I'm looking at one pieces with the shorts or skirts.
And to top everything off, I started my period yesterday. In the middle of the frakkin' grocery store. GAH! And, I have sprouted a HUGE zit right next to my right nostril. It hurts soooo bad. Looks like another day spent inside my frakkin' house today. I'm beginning to wonder if there is a world outside these walls.
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You looked fantastic at DragonCon! And you know what? You did that - you put in the work and looked amazing. I know it sucks to think of work undone - but you can do it again. It is a lot easier to get back in shape if you've already been there. That's what I'm doing now - using that memory of looking and feeling great to get through this "blah I hate feeling fat" phase, knowing that I can do it, stick with it, and get back to looking good (and using your abs as inspiration!)
ReplyDeleteAnd you know you have your friends for support :)